My Sunshine girl


Sometimes its hard to believe that my "little" sunshine girl is heading off to Kindergarten this year! I am so excited & I know she is too, But when she says "Mommy, I don't want to school, I have enough friends; I don't need anymore, I don't need to learn; I'm already smart, I want to stay with you forever, because when I leave I'll miss you too much." It makes me a little sad, I'm going to miss her too! She's been my little wingman since she was born & has hardly left my side. Sometimes I just sit back and watch, watch her do things shes done a million times and some how get taken back to where/when she first learned how to do whatever it is she was doing. I was always told "time flies enjoy it while you can" or "Don't blink" which is probably one of the main reasons why I got into photography. I never wanted to miss a moment. I have always want to freeze that moment in time with beautiful photos. Looking back at all the photos I can tell you exactly when and where they were taken along with how old each of my children were, and I love that I have those little memories that they will one day want to know about, or look at.
On Thursday we took Kadience to get her school physical & her shots done (she had to get four!!) it was quite a visit.Mr. Lion (her trusty stuffed animal/best friend/secret keeper) had to come with us to the appointment, Mr. Lion came all the way from Ireland. My Husband had gotten it for Kadience when he was on his was home from Iraq, Mr. Lion keeps her safe if anything ever happens if shes sick/scared or anything Mr. Lion is right by her side. Kadience is a very shy little thing. She usually will not talk to you if she hasn't been around you before & just because your a Doctor or a Police Officer, it doesn't matter. She doesn't want to have anything to do with you at all. First she had to get her Eyes checked by reading the board on the back wall. The Nurse was asking her what letters each of them were & she wouldn't answer. After the first 4 attempts it looked as if she was going to throw in the towel. Her eyes were filling up with tears & my heart sunk. Man oh man, all I could think was how much I felt for her, taking this big step & being put on the spot. So I asked her what the letter were and she told me. Eventually we got through the vision, hearing & blood pressure tests but she would only talk to me! She ended up having to get four shots and had to be held down by three Nurses & it broke my heart in a million pieces. She used to be the one that didn't cry when she got shots, but that day was so different. The screaming & tears that were shed made me wonder if it was really worth it or not, at that very second I didn't want her to go to school, but I know she had to get the shots over and out of the way. I know she will be in great hands. But Letting her go and having to watch her walk away is going to be hard, just thinking about it makes me all teary eyed. I never thought I'd be this emotional, I mean I used to be like "I cant wait until she goes to school because then I'll get some what of a break" and etc but I can seriously wait now, these next 11 days have my full permission to go by as slow as molasses. I know its not the end of the world, but I love her & all my girls. They are my everything & for the last 5 years they have always had my attention & time 365-24/7. Check out these photos below of Kadience just hours old. Shes grown up so much, I am so proud of her and everything she has accomplished.
Momma loves you sunshine girl!





3 comments:

PrimaBallerina Tutus said...

Awe!! I cannot believe she is going to school already. I know we haven't know yall all her life but I feel like I know her enough to be a little sad that shes getting so big and already in school. Both of my girls are in school now and it brings tears to my eyes! She will do just great, and mama you will cry some tears and feel sad but just watching her wings spread will make up for all of it! I <3 you and your whole family and miss yall more!

Jan said...

Kati, I felt the exact same way when Anthony started kindergarten. Granted there is a difference because he couldn't wait to start school but he was w me 24/7 since day one. He's going into second grade now and I wonder, where has this summer gone!?!? The bond between a mother and her children is a crazy thing :)

Tina said...

This made me teary eyed, I am just getting used to my kids going to their Dad's every other week, and it is not getting easier...the time goes too fast to have to miss chunks of it. Your little one is beautiful and going to do well. Blessings on you all.

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